Euphy @euphy@toot.aquilenet.fr
I'm a bully to myself - and I feel lame. Ugh.
Doing this for years now. Self loathing, self shaming, comforting always-the-same routine. Godammit. I know better. It wasn't always like that.
Wanna pretend to be something else now. Let's kick the bully out. Gently now. He did his part. - I wish I could just do that. ...Erh. Anyway. Let's try.
Hey world - let's talk.
I'm a bad #gardener (200m² cared for), a bad debian admin (other's people computers and one server), and I've... Not much else going on.
For now. I wish I'd tried more stuff. I'm too passive.
I genuinely feel boring as a person. When told to open up, I feel I don't have anything to say.
I don't dare trying things. I'm terrified somehow.
This account is a bit of my way to push myself out. So I'd announce "I'm going to try that".
Seem too cliché to work though.
I'm a bully to myself - and I feel lame. Ugh.
Doing this for years now. Self loathing, self shaming, comforting always-the-same routine. Godammit. I know better. It wasn't always like that.
Wanna pretend to be something else now. Let's kick the bully out. Gently now. He did his part. - I wish I could just do that. ...Erh. Anyway. Let's try.
